Post by Kaito on Mar 16, 2016 9:34:46 GMT
So it's a half-hour to 3 AM right now, trying to write a post but my mind keeps coming to this subject I just can't get out of my head because my mind is going about a hundred miles per hour but my body desires bed and I might be a little delirious right now but oh well.
I can't get out my head the desire to ask what everyone thinks as an animal, real or fictional, that you think best represents your character at the moment. I've thought about it for a while and while originally I assumed it would be a phoenix, what with the whole death-and-rebirth motif representing his fall and then his inevitably rise back from so much junk slammed into his life at once. But then I realized it had to be more than that because you gotta deal with things like that all your life, Kaito's even more so. And that's when I was reminded of that Cherokee story about the two wolves that fight inside oneself everyday for dominance, good and evil, "whoever you feed wins" thing. But in this case, Kaito's two wolves aren't good vs evil, but something else:
One wolf is the very definition of every person's image of a wolf as their "spirit animal" and stuff: Strong, vibrant with a beautiful white coat. He's noble, intelligent, cunning and always is thinking of the "pack" over itself. It works best with others of its own kind and is emboldened by them and they in turn are emboldened by him. The other wolf is its mirror opposite: mangy, battered but wiry with sickly matted fur. It has been seemingly spurred by every pack he'd tried to integrate with, forced to fend for itself against predators bigger and strong than itself. It flees at any sign of danger that might cause trauma to him until it is forced to lash out to defend itself, with a bitter ferocity that's horrible to behold. It only knows the need to survive at any means necessary, even if all it will inevitably do is prolong a slow, agonizing death. These two wolves trade off everyday, sometimes alone, sometimes one playing the mask while the other his true face. But unlike the story though, Kaito doesn't always have the choice of "who he feeds" but the rest of the world does.
I can't get out my head the desire to ask what everyone thinks as an animal, real or fictional, that you think best represents your character at the moment. I've thought about it for a while and while originally I assumed it would be a phoenix, what with the whole death-and-rebirth motif representing his fall and then his inevitably rise back from so much junk slammed into his life at once. But then I realized it had to be more than that because you gotta deal with things like that all your life, Kaito's even more so. And that's when I was reminded of that Cherokee story about the two wolves that fight inside oneself everyday for dominance, good and evil, "whoever you feed wins" thing. But in this case, Kaito's two wolves aren't good vs evil, but something else:
One wolf is the very definition of every person's image of a wolf as their "spirit animal" and stuff: Strong, vibrant with a beautiful white coat. He's noble, intelligent, cunning and always is thinking of the "pack" over itself. It works best with others of its own kind and is emboldened by them and they in turn are emboldened by him. The other wolf is its mirror opposite: mangy, battered but wiry with sickly matted fur. It has been seemingly spurred by every pack he'd tried to integrate with, forced to fend for itself against predators bigger and strong than itself. It flees at any sign of danger that might cause trauma to him until it is forced to lash out to defend itself, with a bitter ferocity that's horrible to behold. It only knows the need to survive at any means necessary, even if all it will inevitably do is prolong a slow, agonizing death. These two wolves trade off everyday, sometimes alone, sometimes one playing the mask while the other his true face. But unlike the story though, Kaito doesn't always have the choice of "who he feeds" but the rest of the world does.